the never ending life stories

i'm not perfect

2010-11-30T21:46:00.002+08:00

okay, i've never been here for soooooooooooooooo long....
and i realize i've got hate tags too.. this is what i want to say to dis person and all the others who's about to hate tag me...
i don't expect people to like my posts but if you really don't like it hope you keep it to yourselves
or better yet,stop reading it.
it's better that way. i won't hurt and you won't hurt me=))
and i think i know who it is but i hope it's not you my dear..
but
i don't want to go on further,it will only create more sins.
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anihoo,i'm just revisiting my blog for fun!!!
it's been quite a while since i've been here...
i have nothing to say actually because i'm very tired during this rainy seasons..maybe next year,i'll be moving to a new blog...
to start a fresh again.
i know i said this every year,but i will try to start a new resolutions and aims.
since next year i'm having my n level and it's something to be afraid of.
i will try my very best to buck up on everything.
probably, next year, i'm going to go on the policy, less internet more revisions.
you think i can do this?
hope so=))

2010-04-16T18:58:00.003+08:00

i'm freaking pissed off lor!
talk back kena scold!keep quiet kena scold!
wat u wan me to do?stare at u?
wat kind of respect u want from me?
reali tiring lei fighting wif u!
i got a life mind you!
if u r reading dis,please lah,i can't always please you!
i'm a human not some kind of angel or a smoocher!
if u gonna say u r tired and stuff,i understand but please,i'm not here for u to vent ur anger on!
think it about lah huh?

2010-04-06T18:29:00.003+08:00

bgit!bgit!bgit!!!

betol nye peng sak dgn perangai org2 yg tk ader adat nik!

mak,makin aku diam makin menjadi2 lak!

sial ah,mak bapak kaw tk ajar pe?

nk carik psl dgn aku pon depan2 ah sia!

kaw igt kau byk nyer bagos?

nk ckp ngan aku mcm real gitu,tlg lah,tk goyang lah wei,dasar puki!

kau igt aku suke per kutok2 org!kau yg mintak lah sia!

kecik2 tknk mati dah besar menyusahkan org!

eh serious ehk,wake up lah ehk?

umur semakin lame semakin meningkat bkn semakin menurun,

act lyke ur age lah kan?

itu pon nk kene ajar!

and btw,kau igt jadi "man's bestfren" tu something to be proud of ehk?

sial ah,kaw malukan diri sendiri siak!

kalau aku jadi kaw,aku tk tahu sak mane nk letak muke aku,haiyor!

UR FACE MAKES ME WANNA KICK UR ASS!!

2010-04-05T15:15:00.002+08:00

i'm freak-ing tired people!!

eventhough i did not participate in sport's day but still the weather did not spare me from sweating!!

how "cool" is dat?

aniwaes,today i wore my class tee which stated KUTEH AND 15 ON THE BACK!

i alreadi had the feeling dat someone is going to notice my name and start calling me KUTEH!!!

and guess wat people?it actuali happened!first i was called by dis random guy

from my school at the YCK stadium
den i was like "O SHIT!HE NOTICE!!"

den me and my fren went LJS to eat cause we were like super duper kebuloh ah..

den there were three ITE guys eating so i was not bothered by their presence!

but den,when i was lining up to order,dis particular guy whom my galfrens said very cute and white with big eyes and using geek spec called my name,KUTEH!!

den from then onwards,he kept calling me and say "KUTEH CUTE LAH!"

den when i was eating he said "KUTEH MKN,KUTEH?"

den i was so annoyed lah but den all my fwens were lyke giggling because he's hawt!

den when those boys wanted to leave LJS,suddenly one of his peepz ran and hide behind the wall dat was in front of me and said "CHAK!" den the geek guy suddenly went beside his fwen,with

his hand gestures and went "CHUK!"

i was very shocked lor!

then my fwens started giggling AGAIN!

and they were like,"HE'S SO CUTE!","HE GOT BIG EYES!"

"HE'S HAWT!"

and i was like true but he was so annoying ehk people!

haiz!!he's not the only one who notice my name,lazy nk crite!!but wat can i do!

i like KUTEH!!it simply means cute!!

thanks to my english teacher!=))

miss him so muche!

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btw i actually accidentally tercium someone's back not backside but the body!

OMG!!so sweaty mann!

euwww!tanx to all the people dat squeeze2 mcm jakon gituk nk kluar!haiyor!bluek!=))

2010-03-28T18:08:00.003+08:00

okay peepoz!!!i noe i've been inactive in blog fer a long tyme!

the reason is i'm darn lazy lor!

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okay nuthing happened to me dis past few days except fer the fact dat

i got my IC!!!yeay me!=))

chey ain dah besar ler!hehehe!=))

i felt so relieved when i got my IC cuz i lost my ezlink!!

i noe!careless me!but wat to do,i dun deny i'm careless!

aniwae other than IC news,i also wet to Changi yesterday to "ACCOMPANY"

my parents to meet their fwens!

i noe lyke wat the hell kan?

who nids a company when u got ur fwens?so mepek ah!

and i'm super duper awkward ah layan kwn dorang nyer anak!

anak kalau umur aku tkper ni umur 5 tahun to 7 tahun!

but den luckily dorang nyer barbeque dekat ngan swings,

desperate situations call for desperate measures!

i played swing while talking to my sister and her bf on the phone!

tk pernah2 sey bual2 lamer dgn kak ila!we break the guiness world record!

and den blah blah blah!we went home because i reali can't stand the boredom!

=((

2010-03-13T18:59:00.002+08:00

okay people just wanna say i bought dis very ridiculously cute headband!=))
i've been wanting to buy it since like forever!
so kiyut and perrity!
i dun have the photo rite now so u guys just gonna have to wait!hehehe!=))
its gold and white in colour!i noe,old colour but what the heck,its cute.
okay i admit,ders another colour pink and white but pink is just not my fav
so i go wif the gold!it's very sparkly,stretchable and thin and guess wat its only fer $2.30
because they were having their clearance promotion!they are moving out of hbft.
i feel bad because they are lyke my fav accesories shop ever!=((
i guess i have to find a new favourite!=))

2010-03-13T12:13:00.005+08:00

helu helu helu people!!!!
kuteh's back on blogger....=))hehehe!
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just now i had my PTC at ard 8 am plus?
oh ma ma mia!i'm so the tired sey!
now i'm at hbft's starbucks!=))
i'm so darn cold sey..*teeth chattering*
......
kay,now i'm totally blank,hahaha!
oh well if i got sumthing on my mind later,i will definitely blog it out!!!
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advice to all heartbroken people:
dun be sad!smile with pride and dignity!
dun show the guys or gals ur weaknesses..
why cry fer the person who broke ur heart?
dun commit urself if u noe u can't handle a break up...
true love will come to u when they think u r ready!
if u reali can't wait fer true love den u might as well be prepared fer the worst!=))
gud luck!

2010-03-12T14:34:00.002+08:00

just got back from school and i'm so tired!!!
especially during dis cooling weather!
all my peepz are now in Yio Chu Kang Stadium,they r having sports heat 1
while i'm here at home,resting with the two fans all to me,
the clean toilet, TV and LAPPY and even the soft bed!!!
woohoo!it is just so peaceful!i'm so loving today!=))
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aniwae,nuthing happened much in school today except fer the fact dat,
Fir is going to get caning!
i mean come on,standing fer oneself is nuthing wrong ryte?
pfft,typical teachers ler!
i also found out sumthing very tragically sad fer my bestie!
babe,my advice to you is,just learn to let it go!
he belongs to someone else and ders nuthin we can do abt it!
accept it and embrace it..think of it as a learning experience fer u.
why must look at one tree when u can look at the forest?
think abt wat i said,it' fer ur own gud!=))
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okay,just wanna tell the whole world I LOVE ROBERT PATTINSON!!!!=))

2010-03-11T16:40:00.003+08:00

OMFG!!!!!ECLIPSE 10 SECOND PREVIEW IS AWREADI OUT!!!
WOOHOO!!EDWARD LOOKS EVEN HOTTER!!!HIS SIDEBURN TKNK KALAH!
HAHAHA!
ANIWAE I WAS S0 SHOCK!!IS IT ME OR MY LYFE IS JUST GETTING BETTER!
=))))))

2010-03-10T18:24:00.003+08:00

hello e-ve-ray-ba-day!!!

kuteh's here!!!hehehe!=))

okay i noe lame!because i'm totally sleepy!u can give abt 5 seconds and i'm mout!

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okay,today nuthin interesting happened in school!but,one bad news,i actually failed my BIO LAH!!

i saw dis coming and i'm very well prepared abt it!!

Bio is so darn hard lor..so many questions dat teacher neva teach but end up in the

stupid paper!fcuk the setter lah..

omg,Bio dah satu hal,abis tu rite,

during assembly,si "ko yak" pulak buat hal!

hati panas jek sey when dier threathen sini sane!

cium pantat aku!wei,tk goyang ah!!

cam tkde kerje gitu kan!haiz!!!

dah tu waste aku nyek tyme jek!org nk mkn,nk cpt yg ade ade training!

pantat kan tu jantan!siak!kecik2 tknk mati,dah besar menyusahkan org!

i reali hate hym!!!!!

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i've got something to say!something dat i've been keeping fer

2 and a half mths!

i've been observing certain people and i realize dat,

some people will do just anything to get perhatian!

den,i felt embarrased fer them because they might not notice

dat other people notice!

i mean come on,the change is obvious!even the slowest person in the world

can see!*no offence putri,hehehe!=))*

i wonder wats goin on inside their mind?lack of attention and love maybe!

but i dun think dats the case!

so people,get a lyfe and just move on wif it!

if u wan attention,try to make it not so obvious!it's very embarrasing fer yall!

2010-03-09T17:56:00.002+08:00

hello peepoz!sorry fer not updating my blog fer so long cause i'm very the lazy!
now i mostly tweet my hearts out,hehehe!=))
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okay,so far,my sec three life is awesome!it's full of laughter fer dis
2 and a half mths..trust me,all my fwens sitting near is the gerek2 wan,hahakzz!
aniwae,as fer my teachers,ehmm,they all okay2 lah except fer one or two,u noe
"those" kinda of teacher!
OMG,i've been accused fer two tyme lah,dat bitch's fault!
tgk pki pantat!i hate her alot but wat to do,she's been teaching me fer lyke 3 yrs..
my maths teacher is the best lah,his name is Mr Caden Goo..he is so kelakar!
and also my POA teacher,Mr Chin..the so called the-teacher-who-always-laugh-randomly..
he always make my day...
and also not to ferget Mrs Tsuei,my temporary history teacher,she is the BEST!!!!
she gave us hongbao during chinese new year!
kewl rite?i noe!hahaha!
luckily dis teachers exist,if not,haiyor!my lyfe will be effin bored!!!
luv em freaking much..
i'm still wif my fav fwens..
Ct,Fyqah,Fyt,Put,Nad,Shai,Ruth,Durga!!!
Kenneth,Nicholas,Yun Hao,Vanessa and many more!hehehe!
sori if i neva mention ur name!
they are those people whom i love with all my heart!=))
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okay,peepoz,so far..dis is the onli thing dat melekat dlm otak kush!
lata i'm goin out..maybe i will post out some photos..
adios peepoz!=))

sad,hapi,sad,hepi!which one?=((

2010-01-09T00:50:00.007+08:00

okay today was awesome and bad!=))

okay just now, me n mah familay went out fer dinner at AA!=))

as u can see the pics above,mua and mah siz dressed up okay people..=))

we look totally gor-jez!but i'm the prettier one,hekhekhek!

aniwaes after dat,sister suggested to buy chocolate cause mama kept finishing the whole bar of chocz,bluek!=((

apa punya olang!hahaha!

a-ni-way,den we chiao,riding car,blah3!!!!!

den...*jeng jeng jeng*

we felt a bump and we were very shocked especially my dad...

he was like "OMG!"but in malay!

den when we looked behind,we saw a cat laying lifelessly on the road!

sis was on the verge of crying while dad and mum was panicking and me...

i was like "SHATZ,WAT TELAH TERJADI?"

den we were stayed frozen in the car but den
wat made me n mah family angry was dat,ders one stupid van just ran over the poor thing,again!

i felt veery pitiful fer the cat..i was thinking maybe the cats was abt to go home to its kittens

or wat but maybe its time fer him or her to go..

hope the cat will rest in peace in heaven..

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den after dat,dad send me home and den went off to send mama to werk.

den me n mah sis sempat lak ambek gmbr,hehehehe!

den we reach home with a very frightening yet sad memory...haiz!=((((

fun fun fun fun fun weekz!=))

2010-01-08T15:42:00.002+08:00

okay,first i wanna say fcuk cause just now i write long2 den terdelete,pantat kan?
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but aniwaes sorry hor fer not updating my first 4 days schooling!
i will try to tell and remember wat funny things happened to me,kay?
okay start with name calling!
-Rizal = Rizal Sendok
-Hakim = Makim
-Abdul Malek = Abu Malak
-Norain = Norin
those name above except fer Rizalz name were mispronounced and spelled wrongly,MUAHAHA!
it gave us sucha big laugh siot!
dis five days of schooling we were having elective module which is hairstyling and tourism and ecetra but i choose hairstyling,hehehe!
the onli spoiler is the big mouth and pig nose so called "ah lianz"
making so much noise,haizz...
everywhere they go must shout!like their grandpa nyer school gitu kan?
but aniwaes ders another spoiler which was the racist hairstylist,Gera****!
fcuk siot,she layan onli those "ah lianz"...
Ryaa mengamok baru seme jln!haiz,mepek sey!
but aniwaes everything will be perfect if not for these spoilers!
me,sendok,malak and makim spray water to each other and also to others..
but me did not do to others except fer them cause imma gude gude gal!mcm understand,hahakzz!
den si sendok lak tersangkot ngan straightening lah,curling lah!
haiz,dah mcm bapok!=))
si makim ngan dier nyer MJ tk habes2,haiz!
si malek ngan lagu black metal dier ke hulor ke hiler!haiyor!
wat the french toast!
den Ger**** and Ct did my hair messy curly updo today!its fer like prom like dat den the VP said dat
my hair very pe-ritty seyz!so the Kem-Bang!=))
aniwaes it was fun and im gonna miss dis weekz so much!like very much!

PS: miss my 2na peepz!miss them loads!=((

my mum b'dae plus christmas!=))

2009-12-26T19:16:00.004+08:00

me eating!=)) and the pic above is my mum and fiqar!=))

me n my cutey nephews(left: Dzulfiqar right: Dzulqairi)

my bro-in law(abg Epain n his son,Qairi)

me n Qairi!=))

me n kak yan!my first sister!=))

yesterday was fun but tiring!=))
yesterday,my family excluding kak ila,went out to eat at hajah/r maimunah..
they have the best dishes ever!the fired chicken and they tahu telor!wow,its like heaven man!
i went der to celebrate mum b'dae cum santa's b'dae too!
it was christmas but we spent our day at kampong melayu where my auntie fizah and uncle ham werk!
mum want to stay till 10 plus cuz der will be kude kepang and i was like,what?
tk habes2 kude kepang!but since it was her b'dae,we agreed!
a bit later my busu yan n busu yam came by with nenek also with their sonz,arfan and zafran!
yeay!more companies!they were very entertaining lor!
since i was the oldest w/o Ad,i bully them like hell,hahaha!=))
asked them to do stupid stuffs!*evil laughter*
aniwaes,i reali did enjoy yesterday!it is the day which i want it to replay over n over again!
*singing again n again*
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hope school will come faster!=))

2009-12-25T00:11:00.002+08:00

i just wanna wish dis lovely and beautiful women in the world,HEPI 48TH B'DAE!
hope u will be hepi and blissful fer the rest of ur life!
dun care abt wat other peepoz say,stay young at heart!age is just numbers...=))
and just wanna tell u dat u r the best mommy in the world!!!!
*thumbs up*
i love u so muche,mommy..
~~~~~
and to all MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2009-12-24T18:34:00.002+08:00

just edit the picture above!nice rite?original hor!got TM some more!=))
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just chatted with my favourite teddy bear teacher,Mr Han!
he wanted me to join band and i was very tempted by the offers,
cuz i had been stressing over my cca!
he also said dat i will only nid to commit fer 1 year and 3 mths!hahaha!=))
very tempting sey!=))
haiz!!!!
but der will be chance of me joining band back!
but not french horn!please!
it is very stressful fer me leh!
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and now chatting wif CT baby!
she also wants me to join band back and she is screaming rite now!
der will be band prac on 29 Dec so they are hoping i will come!
hahaha!kekek sey she!
she makes me tummy pain!=))
hahaha!
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and also Mr Han also asked me to ask ard and i'm aiming fer
ICHA BABY,BITCHY RUTH AND ALSO DURGZ!!
all dis peepoz dun have CCAz!
*evil laughter*
so dis peepoz,beware!
i will keep my eyes on chu people!=))

2009-12-22T19:20:00.002+08:00

i'm missing my school days!
my fwens!
my enemies!(believe it or not?)
my irritating teachers!
and maybe i will be missing Mr Muthu!
hahaha!
and i'm missing my pipz!
the jokes,the bloppers,the tears!everything!
i reali2 wish dat holidays will end faster but will come back sooner!

2009-12-19T15:36:00.000+08:00

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2009-12-19T14:55:00.001+08:00

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2009-12-19T14:21:00.003+08:00

okay the picture above was inspired by mr monopoly plus siti nurhaliza's cute mole!=))

dun mind me peepoz!it is just fer fun!hahaha!=))

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okay i'm freaking mad with my sister's bf lor!

he tricked me into playing fishville so dat i can add him!

i told him to download left dead 2 but i didn't know it will take days to download it!

he said that the downloading is 98% awraydi and i tot it was true but den..

arghhhh!too angry to write seys!hate him for lying lor!

ish!den after dat nemind u noe,he continue to smile2 pulak tu!

ni bikin sister panas nik!i feel like strangling him!

haiyoorrrrrrr!heart pain lei!

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i recently knew dat FT ISLAND is coming to Singapore next year on Jan!

kewl or wat?Fifi baby cannot wait to go!she's a fan of Seunghyun,maknae!

but i'm forever and always will be LEE JAEJIN'S FAN!

hahaha,drama momma or wat?

aniwaes is 100 to 150 bucks lei!

gotta save money,itu pon kalau smpt nk sep duit!

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and now i'm still thinking abt left 4 dead 2 liao!

wa piang ehk!so the se-low!

can't wait fer tomorrow though!

WILD WILD WET BABY!

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2009-12-17T11:11:00.002+08:00

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fuck off MF!!

2009-12-16T10:41:00.003+08:00

can you like fucking get over it!
wat the fuck is wrong with chu?
just fuck off from my sight!
u wanna noe who is the fucking MF?
she's just a fucking bitch who onli think abt fucking flirt!
when i see you next year,you better don't dare to fucking talk to me abt being ur fucking besties and your fucking crap saying dat u miss me and all!
JUST FUCK OFF BIATCH!!!!!!!!!!=))

2009-12-16T00:56:00.002+08:00

omg omg omg!!!!
PARAMORE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!
i knew that they are having their tour but i didn't noe dat Singapore is going to be their next stop!
woohoo!i'm so loving them rite now and they are cuming!
omg omg omg!PARAMORE ROXS TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=))
I LOVE YOU HAYLEY WILLIAMS AND GEORGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YOU BOTH ARE THE BEST!=))

2009-12-12T03:07:00.002+08:00

okay peepoz, if you're reading my blog rite now,don't bother to read it cause questions will pop out and i'm being emo shatz rite now,so....LAZY TO ENTERTAIN!=((

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okay, i just want to say,"Can i please start everything all over again?" i mean, i want to sleep right,eat right,think right and be right!i feel like i'm missing this one thing in my life but i don't what exactly it is.when i wake up,my heart just felt so heavy as if it weighs 100 kg.i will be like,nothing new is going to happen to you so just move on with ur life already.i moved on and stop,i moved on again but i just have to stop!i waited for something for so long but i don't know what is it.i want to let go of everything out from my chest but i don't know how to unlock it.i tried many ways such as singing,dancing,talking to myself,writing a bunch of stories,eating and even listening to music and not to ferget going out with my pipz!just wat the hell is wrong with me?i just felt that i nid to fill up my life with colours.but where to find these colours!i just wish i can sleep all my life and live in a world of fantasy where magic always happen!haizzzzzzzzzzzz!!=(((((

2009-12-03T23:47:00.001+08:00

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2009-12-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

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2009-12-02T18:44:00.003+08:00

confirm schedule fer now..=))

date: Friday,4 Dec 09

Time: 11 or 12 plus

Venue: either CWP or NP

Outfit: anything comfy and dun ferget jacket or wear long sleeve if lazy..

Place to mit: bustop NP

2009-12-02T03:26:00.003+08:00

OKAY!!!ANNOUNCEMENT2!!=))

to all my fwens:Icha,CT,Shai,Put,Shanice and Fyt

me and icha planned to mit up and wanted to go out so we tot of goin lepak2 or maybe catch a movie or sumthing..so if u guys r going please tag me or leave a message on my facebook's wall!

dis is the unconfirmed schedule:

Place:

Nearest:Northpoint

Far:AMK HUB

Time:

going:preferably after 12pm

cuming back ard: 5 to 7 plus

outfit:

anything liao!=))

place to mit up:

NP bustop

*if ders any changes yall will like to make..please tag or leave a message on my facebook's wall or u can twit me or my twitter

2009-11-29T19:16:00.002+08:00

"loving someone different doesn't mean i have to stop loving him for who he is,rite?"

"Even it is too painful for her but she still continue to wait for him becuz he said I LOVE YOU!!"

"Being with u now is the best thing ever..
but being me now is so painful.."

"i love you but i love him more.."for Jacob Black

-Ain's quotes.Inspired by the Twilight Saga:New Moon

2009-11-21T07:45:00.001+08:00

now is 7.46..abt a few minutes more and i'm out yall..
so just wait and i will updates pic and info of my trip..time out!=))

2009-11-19T19:15:00.003+08:00

dats me with my new specs!cool rite,i noe!=))
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aniwaes just wanna inform the peepoz out der dat i won't be updatin
from dis Sat till Wed,kays peepoz?
cuz im goin to VIETNAM..woohoo!
i'm gonna miss my family like hell i tell yah..
dun weri..when i come back home safely..
i will make sure to update photos of my trip and stuff kayiz?
reali gonna miss yall!!!!

2009-11-19T04:10:00.002+08:00

haiz...2 more days and i'm out!=((
my sis kept telling me she will be bored while my mum kept telling me to take care of myself.
they make my heart feel heavy to go...
okay i noe it is like onli five days but i neva go overseas w/o them b4!
i dunno how to feel at dis moment!=((
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aniwaes just wanna update certain things..
okay peepoz..i just bought a new specs with extremely good discount
w/o even need to bargain cuz imma regular customer!
i bought a nerd specs..so disturb me all u want but i still think its cool!
today i will be taking it with my mum..
and btw..my degrees increased alot seyizz.
from 500 to 600+..i noe wat the heck rite?=((
reali regret fer playing lappie in the dark,haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

2009-11-16T22:54:00.005+08:00

just got back from NP to shop my vietnam trip thingy!=))

got to buy sandals from sports link and it was on sale..

halfway walking,i thought of camwhoring to put on blog and that is the result of posing n editing..=))

not to ferget i bought fake nails plus the wire rubber band..the trend nowadays are so weird!

den we were hungry after the long search fer my stuff.

so we decide to go long john to eat..hahaha!

so fun sey der.got to take lots of weird and candid pics..

kak ila and me were like walking n stop walking n stop just to take pics...

hahaha..people were looking at us but wat the heck!?!

we then went home taking 811 bus and we camwhore again..

we accidentally took picture of the lady behind us and her face is darn candid ah..

we laugh like hell sii-ya!

den we continue taking pics after dat we reach our stop..

haiyor,wat a long sleepy cold day!like winter sey and winter fashion is so on season ehk...

mane2 gik,ader winter clothing design..

long time sey i neva go shopping with big sis..rindu sey!=))

hope she will not be busy anymore and spend time with me OUTSIDE!

reali miss those days!=((

2009-11-15T04:58:00.005+08:00

see dat big word on top?
yeah,i hate dat word but behave like one!hehehe..=))
but it just kinda remind me of a fren dat i'm "used to be VERY close with"
she and i were together fer quite a long time and i thought that i knew her well back then..
but..................=((
she proved me wrong!i'm not gonna tell u wat she did cuz it could be embarrassing fer her.
and awkward fer me.
i expected the truth from her but she's so gud at pretending,u noe..
like nuthing ever happened...it is very sad fer her actually..
i mean,i didn't noe how many times she did dis but i noe it could quite a while..
cause,i can reali feel it.
i didn't wanna discriminate her cause maybe she had her probs but i'm hoping
she will tell me face to face wats her prob or wats her problem with me!
i did not expect hundred percent truth from her..
i just expect her to be straightferword..
i'm telling dis to yall now cuz i'm inspired by one show..
and it is very inspiring to me dat it lead me to dis post!
not being emo shit rite now but i'm just wanna let it go once n fer all..
~~

It is quite gratifying to feel guilty if you haven't done anything wrong: how noble! Whereas it is rather hard and certainly depressing to admit guilt and to repent.
Hannah Arendt

2009-11-14T06:17:00.003+08:00

Just wanna wish dis shorty,a hepi 14th b'dae!
yeay,at last u turn 14!sori yah,cannot give present,pokai liao!=))
may all ur dreams come true and also,hope u won't stay single fer long!
hehehe!btw,stop playing psp and go find urself a gal ley!
i have a few candidates in mind but i won't reveal their name.
huhuhu,so pipoz,u wanna noe?
well,its fer me to noe and fer u to find out,hehehe!=))
aniwaes,i'm gonna miss those days where Zhen Hao,Kai Yan,Lim Thong,Jeffrey and others
called me NO RAIN,reali gonna mis them loads!=((

2009-11-13T19:31:00.006+08:00

clockwise:me,Fyt,Icha aka miss wise and C.T

miss them loads!sori yah Putri and Shairah,i can't seems to find ur pics but den i assure u guys
dat ur pics will be uploaded in no time!=))
~~
today went back to school fer vietnam trip briefing and it makes me feel excited..
had a little argument with mum,as usual!haiyor,neva ending ley!=((
aniwaes,in one of the programme,der will be opportunity to take sampan..
guess wat?i'm not gonna!i'm scared of falling!der will be land transport
so i rather not risk my life..NEVA!
den blah blah blah!
all the regulations and shatz..so the boring sii-ya!
aniwaes,got to talk to shanice and i so love & miss her laughter like hell seyiz!
and we are in the same class,woohoo!=)))
~~

hot couple:FiLAdDiNZz

just wanna wish early hepi bdae to dis luplay bro!
hope when u get older,try to think wisely..dun make stupid decisions..
and be patient with kak ila..even though she can be quite annoying,ehehe!=))
and hope u will get into my dad's good book!
btw,dun smoke like eating food!cut down a bit if u wanna live happily ever after with sister..
and please ehkkk..upgrade ur fasheeyon taste!=))
u and ur long pants and dat brown jacket with ur hat and ur puma bag with ur torn sneakers!
tolong ehk..upgrade ehk..sakit mate kush!
okay2,b4 i go any further,just wanna say good luck and hepi b'dae!

2009-11-13T06:05:00.003+08:00

hey look up der!result from my webcammies momanz!=))
~~
just wanna take dis opportunity to say a big THANK YOU to my sis,NORHAFILA!
w/o her,dis blog would be nuthing!it took her abt 2-3 hrs!
good people will be rewarded big time,hehehe!=))
~~
just wanna update my likey likey!
i'm now so into Paul Wesley and also i'm so loving the vampire diaries..
and recently i just found out a show called melrose place..
the actor playing Jonah is so HOT,and mua is liking it!=))
how is i wish to be with him,chey faiyeek!

2009-11-11T02:59:00.000+08:00

loving my sister for editting this for me...i love it yeay!

2009-11-08T18:21:00.000+08:00

tic toc tic toc..
time passes by with such a fast speed...
i've done the same things fer almost the 2 weeks of my holiday!
the never ending time makes me feel numb..
i just cannot wait to go VIETNAM!!

counting down: 13 days left..=))

2009-10-29T18:43:00.000+08:00

just resting at grandma's houze after a very fun day with FYTRIA DARLINGZ!
it started like dis....

firstly,CT,ICHA,FYT AND ME went to staright to KFC...Fyt wanted to eat cheese cause the day b4 yesterday,we went to eat L.J.S..hahaha,fyt,me and cheese,so the wacky!=))
after we ate zinger burger with cheese fries..then der is dis one boy who had not even touch the freshly hot chicken,hahaha,and guess wat we did?actually we was offered by the KFC worker to eat the chicken..AND WE ATE IT..me and fyt were laughing like hyenas out of control while CT and icha were holding back their laughter..

after dat we hang ard np,onli me and fyt cuz CT and icha got something on as usual..
den we saw one "FARHAN SHAH" werking in sports link and fyt was in love including me..he keep staring at us while smiling..AND HE SAW ME AND HE WAS SE-MILING...i was so the paiseh,haish..den i keep asking Fyt to walk up and down the escalators to disturb her..

den i brought her to my grandma's houze to rest fer a while..den i send her off to interchange but den we went library first to find "ehem"...ad told me too..
we walk past sports link as usual,hehehe...afetr dat we went to interchange to send Fyt off...it was so the fun sey...=))

2009-10-26T19:58:00.000+08:00

ehmmm....
packing my stuffs to go to my granny's houze..i'm goin to keep her company for 4 days cuz auntie fizah and cik ham kush pegi HONEYMOON..WIAO!!!hope they will enjoy it...Ad will be sleeping over too..actually he ws the one who dragged me to sleep at nenek's and then i agree cuz of guitar heroes yaw...hahaha....=))
aniwaes,won't be using internet liao for dis few days..haiz,dun weri i'll be BAK!!!

*KMA*

*instead of using xoxo...i'll be using KMA which means kiss my arse...

2009-10-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

now i'm eating black pepper beef puff,hehehe..i'm now sitting and listening to music in harbourfront's starbucks...hahaha!so darn hungry dat's why my kind sis prepared for me black pepper beef puff and vanilla steam milk,luv yah!=))

haiz,in harbourfront got no CGz at all...der are only white chix and white hunks..not my type man...and guess wat,i'm going to national museum on monday with my schoolmates and teachers..Mr Han is going to be der,woohoo!but Miss Ong is not going to be der,haish,wat a pity...=((
Putri wanted to go to National Museum recently and i dunno fer wat..she is so random,but she's my cutest fwen ever,hahaha..aniwaes,dis holiday,i'm going to be so lonely...
i dunno why but i just have dat feeling...=((

2009-10-23T19:38:00.000+08:00

OMG,today was god damn fun man!me,Fyt,Put and icha went to lepak with halim and his sleepy eyes but when his fwens came,he was so cheerful,boo you halim,hahaha!=))
and not to forget i saw HIM again and i was like drooling bowls of saliva!hahaha...
he's getting hotter day by day and i'm getting in love with him,chey like real...

as for my result for my exam was absolutely unexpected man...all i passed except Sci but i'm not worry cuz they have not add the marks to the final year exam like the mid year and tests...and also i've got top 3 for English which was unexpected because i tot Jeffrey would actually win over but it turns out different dat i expected and as for my maths,i got average but still it was my first pass for my final year,woohoo..tanx to paper 2,becuz of it my marks for maths was low,haiyoo!fuck it!Literature was okay but next year maybe there will be no Lit class and i was like WTH sia!SIALAN MAN!hish...

i also wanted to update my fav-ies for today!i'm now into panic at the disco,hahah..tanx to m dear beloved brother,Hyeril,s let me listen to dis song...

and not to ferget,i was totally pissed off by "TOYOL"!ERGHHHHHHHHHH!FUCK IT SIA DIS BIATCH!wearing floating cap doesn't make you look cuter or make you look like you got lots of hair lah wei...pe-leaze lah,go and like check out the mirror or sumthin!and also wanna flirt,just take ur cock and walk off to somewhere else dat i cannot see or shall i say WE CANNOT SEE!pe-leaze dun be a jealous biatch kay?not good!you will be lonely and single for the rest of ur life,note dat!

2009-10-21T16:44:00.000+08:00

gu gaga everybody!!=))
just wanna say tanx to my big sis,Fila,who helped me alot with my blog until 5am in the morning!
love you a lot!without ur help,dis blog would be nothing..

i also wanna update things that i'm into rite now..
guess wat people?i so love the colour orange and i dunno why..as u can see my blog is in orange and black..and wat does dats tells you?yup,orange rules,boo yah..
i'm also into MBLAQ,B2ST and not to ferget,Taeyang..fer the ones who does not who are dis people,they are part of the korean music industries or a.k.a korean singers/bands..hehehe,just extra info for you people out der...

the next thing dat i wanna say is actually to apologize fer not updating my blog fer a lo-hong time..sorry yah cuz i'm so darn lazy to update as you all noe i'm youtuber not a blogger...hehehe..i hope yall will enjoy reading my blog okay?
gugugigigaga!=))

2009-08-31T20:47:00.000+08:00

i reali hate you biatch?neh dats not wat i wanna say!=))
okie,today teachers day performance reali is fun but messy abit!i onli like the part where
my cuz breakdancing!i'm reali hepi for him because it's been a long time he wanna perform in front of all the nss students!in ur face people!he may not be the cutest guy in nss but he is the best buddy and cuz i ever had...i'm so hepi for him,jiayou cuzin kush..=))
okay,other than dat,nuthing interesting happened today except dat i nearly hit my head near the bathroom door cus it was locked,damn it!it was a very unexpected incident,hehehe,not to mention it was like so paiseh for me ah,haiyosh...all my peeps were lol and i'm like "i'm okay,i'm okay!!!"especially FYT,my gal,nemind,next time she will feel wat i feel,just wait and see,cheys,like real(her bdae is cuming so,hehehe)!
okay,i went home together with miss wise den as usual she went off the bus first den i took out my mp3 and listen till i reach home..but...a guy called out my name but i don't recognised who is he..he went near me and say hiyee and i was like do i noe you or wat..he laugh and say i'm boyhellpit..and i'm like wat!i was like talking to him for a few mins den i say i got to go cuz i'm so damn hungry and tired..he was cute but not my type,its baby face so ding ding ding i think he is miss wise type..den he laughed and said okay i got to go too so bubye and i was like he is so random..i took my earpiece and continued listening to remember me by fort minor!haiz,i'm reali confused dis few days!=((

2009-07-31T16:31:00.000+08:00

OMG,today was D-E-F-FINITELY fun!CG's celebration everyone!me and miss wise were so in love eventhough we didn't get to meet ANDY SHARIZAL but its okay cause he was replace by three musketeers,ahahaha...sizzling and burning hot serve for us,heehe..It started in the bus when we saw dis few guys which one of them caught miss wise eyes and then continue when we met our LONG-LOST LOVERS in the mosque which were JOKER & RED SHIRT GUY..miss wise was especially happy and excited,supposingly i shud go back home but mise wise want to lepak2 at NP to wait for RED SHIRT GUY!but b4 dat,we met one crazy bitch in the bus 811 and we've seen her quite a few times but today she was like clearing her throat loudly with dat "ehemm" here and "ehemm" there and den we started to laugh out loud like a pair of hyenas,many were looking but who cares?
den we we lepak at library and after a few minutes,miss wise decided to go to the toilet and den we meet the 3 MUSKETEERS(btw,i like the one wearing uniform),after the toilet trip we went to the libary to see those musketeers again and dis time they were sitting near the glass window which can see the escalators and people down there..den we decided to go out,and we saw three clowns,i thought of stalking them just for fun and they were like rushing and looking back at us when they saw us laughing!they were walking faster than a normal person and one them accidentally hit a pillar while looking back at us and it so potong steam,hahaha.rite der me and miss wise were laughing non stop...we continued stalking them and den they disappear when we reach level 2.
we were at level 2,miss wise caught them looking at us directly for quite a long time and wen they see us,they just turn back quickly.we were like, "OMG3x,wat are we going to do?"den we decided to go back to the library but long way,to our shock,they are not der and we were only gone for about 4 minutes..we decide to go down when suddenly,miss wise saw them hangging in second floor while looking up at us and she was like "they are over der!" and i was like" "where,i can't see...okay i saw them!"
i was paiseh and we went down trying to find a topic to talk about den we also saw my type of guys wearing TOPI just beside the MUSKETEERS..and i was nervous like HELL!we went down and saw the both groups of guys looking at us from the second floor and i was like..OKAY,AWKWARD MUCH!i decided to see them one last time so i make an excuse to go to toilet..after dat we went out of the toilet and they were still looking at US!!!!!!!!!
den not to forget miss wise bumped onto an old lady while i did chicken dance in front of ITE GUYS,how embarrassing was dat?
we reach the bus stop and we were talking den suddenly a bunch of guys came down the bus and one of dem go and say,"VOTE UNTUK CHIRUL(I THINK DIS IS THE SPELLING,SORRY TO HIS FANS OUT DER,ME NOT A FAN OF ANUGERAH MUCH!"and miss wise was like wtf?den were we like laughing about wat had happened to us today and den my bus came and i had to go!310709 IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

i sooooooooooooooooo lup today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!310709,woohoo!yeah!!!=))

2009-07-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

Omg!I don't agree that TEENAGERS should be the first negative thing we think when we discuss about "intimacy in public".it's like ruining our reputaion and i want to change people's perspectives about us,teenagers...okay,i agree that there seems to be some articles about teenagers kissing in public hugging and so on but that's the way they show their love!why must Singaporeans be so narrow minded!you mean you people rather see they get involve in violence than romance.well,if some of you don't agree with me,it's okay cause you have your own opinion,i'm just saying out what i feel towards this no romance thingy but if i change your mind in some way or some how then dats great!so.............

(I'M JUST BEING RANDOM AND DIS STARTED CAUSE OF MY DEBATION WITH MY SISTER ABOUT DIS TOPIC,DUN MIND ME!)

2009-07-26T14:08:00.000+08:00

omg,so sorry for not posting for the past few months...i deleted some of them which is not relevant anymore..so sorry to my peepz...miss wise,CT,Fyt and choco emo cuz i kept delaying my blog updation...dis few months was basically the same like all the other months b4..except that i pass my maths 19 over 25!i'm so happy,like for the first time of my sec 2 life..as for the other subjects is all sha la la la la!!!!!!i got a....LOT to say...firstly i can't stand biatch!i shall not name who is it but yeah watever..sumtimes they are just trying too hard to get under your skin..trying to be little miss goody two shoes in front of you but when at the back,they were like she is so tut!she is so dat and dis and i was like come on freaks you can do better than dat..boo you all!get a life fuckers,your world only revolves around guys and gossips!and please it is not all about you~you wanna be popular,get rid of your flaws first than you can talk perfect wit me..

secondly,i will like to gather some courage to say this to ct,gal be brave!why you care so much about wat he think of you..you are cute,adorable and you have admires..why wait for him?come on,there is other guys cuter than him!and stop hurting me i front of him,it hurts,it really does!he is just so not for you!trust me!i really love you and dats why i advice you to stay away from him!

thirdly, i will like to address this to every girl out there who is crying out loud for a boy fren!i got three words to tell ya, GET A LIFE!seriously,this week i saw many jerks rejecting innocent gals...don't worry about not being wanted by any guy,you still have your family and bffs!if you still searching for Mr Right then i think you should stop it cause it is so not the time for yall!i really hope my peeps won't get hurt by useless jerks again!my heart goes all out to you guys!

so dat's all i have to say and hope your eyes will be open,thankz!

2009-05-28T14:40:00.000+08:00

after all that i've done.....dis is wat i get?
dis is frustrating for me,no one noes how i felt rite now...=((
i have no one else to pour my feelings to...i felt very heavy inside..
i thought that everything is over but i was wrong!
u are the only dat i can lean and cry on but suddenly,you've change overnight...
now,i only have myself...i can't even count on others for a shoulder to cry on.
everybody thinks i'm very happy with my life..i'm so tired....
god help me....i only have you to cry on...i'm so so so so so tired,god!
can you take me with you?i wanna leave everything,i have no choice...
I HAVE NO ONE WITH ME!NOT EVEN MY MOM!!!!!!!!=((

2009-05-21T17:49:00.000+08:00

woohoo!today was so fun and i'm feeling relieved but tired...
tanx to my peeps,Fyt,CT,Miz Wise and me(Miz Kuteh)...we had so much fun today camwhoring..
we camwhore at the admiralty park but b4 dat we when to banquet causewaypoint to eat...
very fun with the BRUCE ALMIGHTY,THE JOKEZZ....OMG so funny seys!
i burn lots of fats today....walk from causeway to the park...so hot and we all were perspiring like hell and then on the way der,we kept combing our fringe especially Fyt....
so random sey kiter all!we laugh here and der,den suddenly one mat go and call Fyt budak hijau den we were like wateva cuz she was wearing green tee!
i was like wat the hell man!wanna step cute!go to republic poly den can talk to us!
hahahahakzz.aniwaes,2day was so random but i enjoyed very much!neva gonna 4get dat Fyt spray sweet drinks to me!I LUV FISHAINDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=))

2009-05-15T15:26:00.000+08:00

yo yo yo!after already a few weeks past and i'm still feeling depressed!why?why?why?alot of things me n m gals but yeah not dat important except for one prank dat i felt a lil bit guilty....but nemind!she kinda deserve it...
after exam usually we supposed to go back and revised but instead we go lepak at np n like so the kecoh ah!laugh here laugh there!fart here fart there!i reali feel great when i'm wit my peepz,hahahahkz!=)haiz,now inli left science and arts mid year!tank gudness......

2009-04-30T19:07:00.000+08:00

i can't believe dat now i'm sitting here doin maths!dis is wat i get for having a maths lover as an older sista!i really feel heavy inside me now!i dunno why!and sory2 to my peepz cuz i did not come to school today,hehehe..=))
so damn bored seys sitting here doin nuthing except maths!haiyoo...
now i'm trying to figure out an equations dat is so lame rite,i noe!haiz,aniwaes,now i wanna do more equations cuz i was force to do it!=((
bubye now!=((

2009-04-26T02:39:00.000+08:00

am i not being myself dis few days?
did i just fall deep asleep?
i feel very meaningless and tired of all dis craps and shitz!!
i just cried for someone dat barely even notice me!=((
i want the old me where i use to hate guys and only love my storybooks!
someone close to me say dat I've change and it's just because of one guy!!
she knocked some sense on my head but i dunno if I'm still awake?

sick and tired of waiting for you!!!!i'm so sick of living wit ur face clearly in my head...but why i'm still not feeling light and relief?i feel pressure!
i'm scared of truths and reality!like she said,he may not even care if i'm crying blood or wat!maybe he's enjoying outside not hecking care abt me!
i dun wanna trust anione!i dun have the heart to forget abt u since i've been living wit me n u's fantasy for 1 yr and 4 mths!

i am still crying rite now!=((
i hate myself to the core!i'm disgusted by me,can u believe it?
shud i just shut myself off him?or be a bitch and break them off!
not gonna happened!!!!!!!i dun wan to be a bitch and destroy some else's happiness!some bitch destroy my mum's happiness and i'm so not goin to do dat to others!!!!!!!!!!!now i feel abit light hearted!the tears are starting to dry up!
i think i shud watch some hair tutorials so i can plan on how to tie my hair for school dis monday and the rest of the year!

ps: kak!tanx alot for helping me to WAKE UP...but i nid time to forget abt him!
just give me time!time heals wound!i hope dat is true some how cuz its werking
4 me!=((

2009-04-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

bingit bingit bingit!!!!!!=((
malas nk hidop tahu tk?dgn perangai satu2 cam gini!
tk boleh tgk org senang utk satu minit ke?balik sekolah jek,blom lagik pijak lantai rumah dah suro buat tu buat ni!
penat tahu tk!dah kat skolah mcm2 karena nk layan ade sampai tk terlayan!
PENAT LAH.........

*i feel much better lah sey!!!!!=))whoever read this and not satisfied!
dis is my blog and my life story!so u can just laugh ur ass off or u can just sit there and read unfeelingly,okay???????????/

2009-04-12T12:37:00.000+08:00

yoyoyoyo!i just came back from costa sand chalet and after 3 days and 1 nite,i was like,"HEY,I MISS MY BED!!!".....and i'm quite depressed after i heard rumors has it
saying dat my dad passed away recently....i dunno why i feel terrible?
i dun love him neither do i even think of him at all!=((
is it just my child-father nature kinda feeling towards him?
or i just felt guilty?i'm confused!!!!alot of things has happened to me!
i dunno how to face life!i'm sorry to whoever i did wrong to!
i hope you will forgive me!i'm so tired of facing life's obstacles..
i'm exhausted of being guilty towards u...
hope u all will understand!abt the chalet thingy,
maybe tonite or tomorrow i will upload photos for yall to see!

2009-04-09T21:14:00.000+08:00

i just wanna shout I'M TIRED!!!!tired of wat?
tired of living!!!!!he's been in my mind for 1 years and 4 mths!
how to get rid of him?i'm very2 tired,i just wanna close my eyes rite now!
HELP ME!=((

today my bros got public caning!i cried siah like hell.....
heart pain sah!f*** sah skool's rulez..
all step smiling but then i noe dat it is all fake!
especially "camel" and "pen"!they r like the best bros ah...
i love them sah but too bad satu2 otak sempit!
dah kenek caning dah tu tkpe ah
then Manu asked to stand in front to apologise?
i was like "KIWAK!?!"
i hate sah si koyak tu!benci3!

WARNING 4 CERTAIN B***CHES IN SKUL:
*if u think u r darn perfect,then u can kiss my ass,okay?
*get a fcuking life lah deh!={
*wanna talk,talk front not back!
*dun se-tep jual mahal!
sape2 yg terase or terfeeling,jgn malu2 tag kat board kiter ehk!

2009-04-05T13:39:00.000+08:00

here i am sitting alone in my comp room on a rainy day listening to fall by Brandy!=(
i can just take my pillow and sleep sitting down!i wanna tell yall how much i miss him....
i can't wait to see his face!omg...he's so mesmerising for a guy............................
okay,i know i sounds desperate but dats how u will feel when u r in love or having a crush.
everything abt him seems perfect!he can make u laugh,cry,smile,angry,irritated and sometimes disgusted!aniwaes thinking of love making me feel hungry and tired..
i think i'm way better off w/o him!
wat do u think?=[

2009-04-03T19:49:00.000+08:00

today was hot and sweaty!gosh!i just had an cold bubble bath,woohoo!
sports day was darn lame and boring cuz the cheering was such a turn off and the weather was not so frenly!but b4 i talk abt my sports day,there is sumthin more surprising and shocking happened at skool....
as per normal,getting ready fer PE but yong neva cum and we had extra 2 periods of doin our english hmwk,and then,dis one guy fren of mine happily came to me and asked fer my phone,so i lend it to him!he usually took music from me and dat was common but when i came back asking fer my phone,there were another two guy frens of mine was smilng with him while looking at my phone!
i saw him bluetoothing sumthin and i asked his frens wat they did!
they both told me dat he took sum of my photos from my phone!and one of them was dis fav pic of mine!i was so shock cuz it was like,"hey,why do u wanna pic of me when u can actually see me fer 5 days in a week?"i told miss wise and she thought he like me cuz he asked me to go on a GBR wit him once,and i just dun bother!haiyoo,why of all,HIM?guys,guys!

and another gross thing happened in yishun stadium,i saw him wit her(look at the previous blogging,and u might noe who he and she is..),hugging and leaning wit each other..
it is not abnormal to me fer a couple to do dat but whenever they are "together",they will either be behind me,in front,at the back or left n right..tut isn't it?
my blood just went up to stairway of hell!is like purposely,u noe?wat fuck man?
other then dat,nuthing else happened except dat 2na got a trophy fer sumthing gud..........
went back home starving,sweating and exhausted n as fer the pics,i will upload later on cuz my phone got sumthing wrong...haiz,wat a day!=(

2009-04-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck!
shit man....today sux alot sia!i bump into many people dat i don't wish to see!
school time was fine but after school was like wat the?
and then i saw him again at canteen but dis time alone,i was like is he serious?
where is she?f***ing another guy?or trying to fish for one?
gosh,i just wish dat i dunno him or her and how i wish to change skool!
luckily ders mah peepz,such as miss wise,teddy bear,Fit,choco emo,hana,Put and C.T!
they are the reason dat i'm still ALIVE in dat skool...haiyoo,guys just make me wanna
*BLUEK*!but it just sux when they make u melt rite in front of them!hehehe..=))

at school,other den seeing him w/o her!
i kinda enjoy my school period(tank god)!especially during IT!
i was very surprised when i actually concentrated during lessons!
and i helped loads of people,here,there,everywhere...=0
tanx miss wise fer making me laughed during IT and also dun ferget the squeez2 thingy!
onli teddy,u n me noe dis so let's keep dis as our DIRTY LITTLE SECRET.......................

love yall!=))

2009-03-31T22:48:00.000+08:00

i saw him again!and again and again!he kept staring at me and i was like "dammit!stop it will you!
i'm trying to forget abt you here!"
i just dun understand guys!wat they want?wat they think?it's very annoying but i still keep trying to figure him out!
i'm addicted to him and i just can't forget abt him!wat more do you wan from me you bastard!
get away from my life!dammit!get a fucking life ain!just forget dat u had a crush on a ATTACHED guy!just forget he once existed in ur life!summarise everything,just FORGET DAT FUCKING GUY!he is nothing but a weakness to you!i hate it when this happen,of all,HIM?
i just suxs in my love life!i dunno if he will be mine or not!but i hope he realise dat,his gal,is no angel!
geddit?

2009-03-29T17:16:00.000+08:00

now i am staring into the space on a rainy day...haiz,thinking of why must i love him?
why must i suffer alone in the dark..how i wish he notice me and my feeling?
does he deserve my love?
i wanna stop!but i'm addicted to him..
he's like a pack of heroine to me!i just can't get enough of him...
but he already have a mate but an unfaithful one!
maybe its time for me to tell him?

HELP ME!=((

2009-03-29T01:23:00.001+08:00

Hey there...this was the day that i was absent from school...hehe sorry dear frens for not turning up =P
anyway..early in the morning already i had to go out..first i had to follow my dearest women(mama,kak ila and nenek) to the polyclinic..for mama and nenek monthly checkup(blood) and i had to get MC for myself..and guess what it was so long i've been sitting in the polyclinis like 3-4hours..!!fed-up lor!hees but it was paid-off!
because after the whole check-up... we headed to SAKURA CUISINE RESTAURANT for early lunch yippie! nice treat from mama...enjoyed!! *kening naik naik*
the whole day my sister as usual keep irritates me lahh..i feel like tieing her to the lamp post there..haha and then kak ila sent nenek home and then we have to go SIR to renew mama's passport hehe the journey was quite long and i was very tired cuz mama chose to take MRT instead of taxi..haiyak! recession mahh..WTH...
and we got no seats at all..stand all the way till Lavender okeii..
lucky we no need to wait that long to make the passport..after the whole process we head back home..
my sis was very smart though haha she take us to the MARINA BAY to bounce back so that we can sit hehe and then photo taking session with her..i mean only her..haha
after that on the way home,mama felt asleep while me n my sister busily reading books..but i got tired and finally decided to get some nap and leans on kak ila haha
*comfy* hehe
BUT not home yet...mama and kak ila lah wants to go SHOP N SAVE to fill up the fridge at my home mostly junk foods..haha
kak ila got herself some cheese and bread and also stick roll
mama got herself mocha ice cream HAAGEN DAZZ
and me got myself a TRONKY..which i havent for a long time...hehe
and mama do some shopping for tomorrow cookings hehe
and me n my sister sneakily grabbed two CORNETTO and eat it while walking home! haha
mama was like shaking her head patheticly haha she was like "haiizz ni dua anak betuah ni!" haha we love u mama!!
our tired are paid off..head back home and sleep...
=))

some food are not taken because the camera girl are superbly hungry haha =))

2009-03-12T12:25:00.000+08:00

soyie for not updating for so long yaw!!
i've been busy wit ma werk,cheycheychey,like real!
guess where i am now?at my school comp lab just finish doin my quiz,haizz!
very hard sey!my kepale like wanna break but it is okay,it is not dat important aniwae..=))
today i got a busy schedule and i have to go to dis peak performance and i was like wat...
okaylah i gtg,bell ring alreadi!toodles...

2009-03-06T15:21:00.000+08:00

I'VE BEEN FORCE TO UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!
nothin happened to me except for dis particular prob which involve sumone!!
and he's name is ******* ...and guess what someone ask for my number!! shats!
i was doing my revision in the library with ****** and suddenly there is this two blockheads asking our numbers haha zaman biler nk tukar2 number ni...new style plz....=)
they were like one kind of tut..and im hungry ryte now..when is my mum going to fried the rice! my stomach is grumbling like F.
anyway i like this guy..****. but too bad he's attached. well liking someone is harmless. but im not a bitch to destroy their r'ship u noe..he's cute..and if i see him i will go "awwwww..."
well if anyone noes abt this i hope u keep it to urself..i dun like to make it a big thang...
going hv to chalet soon...wic is on APRIL..haha plz stoppet...haha
well,before this i bumped into those chippos along the canteen..u noe they was like laughing and giggling whenever any guys walk past them..it is so childish. act like a gerl plz...stoppet..
lelaki suke ah tgk pmpn miang...wateva ehk...

klah need to rendam periuk nasi with non-stop hits nagging mum... =)) heess love u mommey =))

2009-01-22T20:30:00.001+08:00

at last i update and it took me damn too long!
haiz,alot of things happened during those days i neva update...
i found out alot of secrets which concerned me and i am darn shock abt all those stuff!
well,sad to say,some of the problems are not solve till now such as...
ders no nid to rake it up cuz ders no point!!=((
each day by each day is full of suprises and things keep on revealing one by one!!
no one and nothing can stop it from happening..
i miss those days*...
i want it to happen again!rite here and rite now..
i can onli *sigh*

PS:FIGURE IT OUT URSELF!!!

2009-01-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

me,i hate me!
wat can i do but just bein me?
why,why keep popping out of no where
it ends up with full of mystery!!

ann*=(

2009-01-01T02:31:00.000+08:00

hiyee!sorry for the late update!hehehe!=))
wow,i cannot believe dat i saw khairul anwar in real live at AA restaurant..
he is quite cute and his hair is stylish and i loike it...
with the starry clothes and i also saw his whole family!
coincidentally on the 1st Jan 2009,and i'm like wat?
only 3 letters i can think of rite now..
OMG!

ann*winks

2008-12-29T23:13:00.001+08:00

me in red ,yaww!!!
cute rite,can be ayumi hamasaki or koda kumi!hehehe..
btw i wanna tanx my sis for doin my blog and frenster for me..if i got the time,i will try to learn more abt all dis complicated stuffs...i will update abt my school life in 2009,so just wait for the updates.

2009 resolution: being me and not change and also find more english courses,hehehe!=)

ann*winks ^-^

2008-12-14T17:50:00.000+08:00

yo wats up?i am now at my cuz's house chillin out!can't wait to start skool yaw,hehehe...
wanna tell yall sumtin,yesterday i went to S'Pore flyer and went to dine in at Popeye!
for like the whole 2 hrs i spent my time der with my family..
it was cool and fun yesterday,cruzing out and lazying ard..
then i slept at my cuz'z house till today!
woohoo,my holidayis just started eventhough it started long ago...

XOXO

2008-12-12T19:40:00.000+08:00

FCUK OFF MY LIFE U SON OF A BI***...
HATE YOU TILL DEATH,M.F!
IT WAS A MISTAKE HAVING U IN OUR LIFE....!!

PEACE OUT
F.O.F.O

2008-12-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

boredom disease attack my one whole week of school holidays,help!i can't get out of dis mess,what must i do??i'm now alone at home with my parents went out to go fishing while my sis went to a bbq party at changi and mua is just sitting all day long playing comp,listening to mother nature,ceh like real but still boring gilerr mcm nk keluar je kalau ikot kan jahat aku lah kan tapi tetap bersabar,sekolah nk start lagi berape minggu je so must be patienti will update more on dis monday cuz it's hari haji and i think i goin to face alot of challenge with my "family" which means i no need to say who's?sape2 yg kenal dan related to me will noe but whoever still dun noe,then dun bother to think abt it cuz it's goin to give u nightmare for days!tk sabar nk 2.40 am sebab nk tgk cite MY PRECIOUS YOU and dats in korea genre which i think is very moving and touching....it's not all abt love and betrayal,it's abt relationships between a single father and three grown up children..i can only remember one of his cute son and he's call Sinho-not a real name.
if only i get to go to korea for just once and i will happy for the rest of my life and not to say i will feel blessed..when i grow older i wanna find either a chinese guys or other races but malay cuz....
i dun wanna explain but i think shud try sumthing different for my family,hehehe!>!>!

2008-12-01T16:37:00.000+08:00

i chat with my old skool frens and dat is my old desk partner,Zul,Obama,hahaha....we talk for a long on the phone talking abt the skool days dat we missed!OMG i reali miss them like so much ah!!!!

WALAU I MISS THEM!!!!!!
MISS THEM, MISS THEM

2008-11-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

hidop aku semakin hari semakin sial!banyak sey yg dah tk mcm dulu,for like example,mak aku yg aku perhatikan semakin malas dan juge hidop ku yg boring giler,haiz!
kalau ikot kan hati,dah lame aku keluar dari rmh ni bkn psl nk freedom but i just want be happy outside rather than satying in dis house!kakak aku tk selalu ade rumah,mak aku tk selalu buat kerje rumah but adelah sikit2!no one nk layan aku seh kat rumah ni...nk kelaur ade curfew,nk main comp ade curfew..lebih baik aku duduk kat rumah cuzin aku,lagi gerek,dgn mak die yg supporting,abg yg kelakar,kakak yg rapat dan bpk yg gerek!he is one lucky guy to have such a family and not a family dat is so goin to fall apart!!!!!!!!and dats my FAMILY,BOOHOOOOOOOOOO...................

2008-11-28T23:44:00.000+08:00

weehoo!today is very gerek sio!my nieces come to my house and so very the kecoh ah...everywhere i go theres commotion(cuz it was cuz by me and my youngest niece)!!hahaha!
laugh here laugh der like org giler sey...but very fun with my sisters bitchin abt people who we are not dat familiar with,bad words berteraboh sini sane,tgk lah kakak sape,haiz!
i miss my gerls like hell sey!mairah,iqah,ellina,nurul,atiqah,suhaili ,nad,putri,shairah and danaria!(soyie if i forgotten anyone's names)the jokes and craps dat we share together were the most memorable time in my sec 1 classes but sad to say some of us will not be in the same class anymore like we used to be!!!!!!

SARANGHE 1NA GALS!

2008-11-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

hi2 he2 hoo2!i'm very very darn bored and darn bored!sorry but i have repeat it cuz i'm darn

BORED!well,nothing happened lah sey,no new videos of DBSK or Big Bang,kental kape?nk bace

buku but i had read all of the books!tk kan lah kot nk bace surat khabar kan?mcm paham....

FIGHTING!!!!!!!!!
( encourage me more ) hehehe!

2008-11-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

today is the most pathetic day of my life!!i woke up at abt 6 pm and i cried out of blue!i feel very stress!my sis kept asking me why i am crying and i refuse to answer but i dun want her feel dat she's at fault!i cried because i thought abt my mum who had been treating me very differently and how drastic my life have change!when i saw my sis and her bf,i thought maybe someday i will be even worst than dat!i am scared to face the changes of my life.......

i am just AFRAID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the thought of getting older and facing more problems is just bitter to me!
i shiver and cry....

TO BE A WOMAN OR ........ NOT???

2008-11-17T18:46:00.000+08:00

hey guys....got my internet back!!! WOOHOO! like finally lah kann...im so bored to death at homw with the two ladies nagging at me!
OMG cants stand it....haizz....cant go out much...curfew here and there too bad that im a gerl...
my sister can go anywhere she likes without curfew..sometimes she didn't even go back home...
but why i cant?? i need to wait 10 yrs more to be like her???
haiyak...
klah..now wan to surf more about my hot korean guys...owck...unbelievable hensem guys tho..
tell my sister to shuddup now cuz she's supe duper noisy!!!!
hahahah sori kak ila its always been unintentionally cruel me...hehehe klah guys see u..
and tell u what i miss my gerls.................................cant wait to go BBQ wif my gerls...see ya!!!

2008-09-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

i just hate you all out der!!!!why you exists in dis world?to give me more problems when i have enough of it?u are one freaking self centred bitch!please reflect lah kan...go to the mirror and ask urself," AM I GOOD ENOUGH!?!".ur face make me wanna go right in front of you and say "FUCK OFF!!!"why the hell you are still here man?please go far away from my sight if its possible okay!i had enough of you!enough is enough bitch...small2 dun wanna die,when big give trouble,alamak!u r one pathetic bitch!!!

today,skool was very fun and miserable!free period for science and project werk,woohoo!but still,i am not so energetic like before cuz fasting mah!btw,sorry eh!long time neva blog cuz lazy ah!all my mly gals muke mcm tk mkn stau tahun sey termasuklah me and not to forget,Shairah neva come,walu worst sey!seriously,tkde mood nk entertatain craps and bull shits!dlm otak onli got AYAM,ICE CREAM,CHOCOLATE AND NOT TO FORGET AIR!!!!tk concentrate member!mls nk dgr cikgu nye nagggings!especially english teacher!balik2 psl n level lah,o level lah!merepek sey!i know dats for our future but it is english lessons rite,so just teach the revelant topics!and sum more die ajar kite past perfect,continuos tense dan more bull shits!and not onli dat english teacher but also dat Pahbo punye Hakim!dah lah botak abe nk step mane nye cool je!mkn gule2 dpn org!menyekse seys!then dat stupid two girls( u-know-who) mati2 nk duduk kat tempat aku!dah ade tempat duduk,duduk je lah!pantat ade cacing kepe?alamak bingit sey member!HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!btw,i miss MR DAGU!!!!MISS HIS BAGGY CLOTHES!!!BOOHOOOHOO!

nowadays,i am into Thailand artist called GOLF AND MIKE!they are hot,pretty,cute,charming,funny and romantic!haiz,they are like one package because they are brothers!
now,DBSK!why they have to cut their hair?their hair is very perfect and cool!especially jaejoong and micky's hair!their hair now look like a wig that is going to fall off (MICKY) while the other one look like mushroom (JAEJOONG)!haiz,why?why?
i miss SUPER JUNIOR!i want them to be together as one again!now,they are like being seperated seys!i wan them back!btw i wan them to come to Singapore!WE LOVE YOU SUJU!
hwang buin and hyunjoong is the best WE GOT MARRIED couple cause they are so outgoing and awkward!but they are six years apart!hwang bo is older than hyunjoong!i like them!no matter wat they do,they somehow manage to make everyone jealous of them!hahaha!Hyunjoong is so blunt and frank!while hwang bo is very outgoing!they are the very best couple!
i heard bad new from my frens and sister saying that HSM3 is not going to be shown in Disney channel but instead,in cinemas!i am freaking angry!that vanessa lah!take nude pictures for what?Baka!

A' ISHTERI' YO! (I LOVE YOU IN JAPAN)

2008-08-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

why must every guy be a jerk!why they can't treat my mum properly?just because my mum is little bit naive when comes to him,dat doesn't mean she is stupid to believe all of ur bullshitzz....i dun anyone to hurt my mum like dat!i dun wan history to repeat itselfs!she's already stress,dun treat her like dis!she treats u better than how she treats us,her daughters!u should be thankful abt it!why u just can't appreciate it at all?she even worried abt u!i hate guys!they just treat us like a fool!i just despise guys like him!is der anymore good souls ard here?i just hate YOU,DARN JERK!I SWEAR DAT IF YOU EVER TREAT MY MUM BADLY,YOU WILL HAVE A CURSE LIFE!!!!AND U WILL NEVER BE AT EASE......I WILL ASURE YOU DAT IS GONNA HAPPEN!I WILL NEVER EVER LET YOU GO UNLESS U DIE WITH A HORRIBLE ACCIDENT...GOD BLESS YOU!

think twice!!!

2008-08-25T16:19:00.001+08:00

haiz,today i am not feeling well at all!my head is spinning,my chest felt very stuffy and my energy seems to be draining,as if some kind of black hole sucking in every tiny bits of my energy...god!help me..i am really tired!i cannot concentrate in anything at all...i wanna be healthy again!i am so darn tired!HELP ME....

2008-08-15T19:24:00.000+08:00

wakakakaka!today was so fun and hyper!me and my budz got to the top of the hill!wat a experience,especially when i dropped down from this thing,wat shall i call it!?!ehmm.okaylah,type of a see-saw...wakau,it was so funny!and they all take pics but before dat we went to the bubble tea shop!aha,i have sumone to talk abt today!and i am so darn angry!why must they make life difficult for me!did i,even know them but i did know one of them..so does it matter if i live my life dat way or must i follow them,THE UGLY WAY!and to start the sentence,they are ugly and stupid and even worst,no shame!yup!they only act in front of their frens but behind them,they are SOOOOOOOOO pathetic!more worst than the animals in the zoo or SPCA.maybe,they will reborn as a pig!oh,not pig but PIGZZ...........their brain is only filled with drain water and also shit,and also not to forget,vomit!wow,dirty ha!so,after they read dis blog which i think dat they dun even know how to read and think properly so,i hope no one get upset abt dis thing cuz i am not critisizing anyone PURPOSELY,cuz like i said!if u dun disturb my life,why must i bother abt urs!and if you dun irritate me,why must irritate u!time is precious darlignz out der!so,my time is short,i have no time for CRAPS....wanna talk abt me ,make an appointment,so dat i can listen to you or whoever even clearer and btw,dun run!if you have a private part which i think you dun,please talk face to face and behave like a human!or you could just snort at me with ur pig nose and talk abt ur craps but keep running away...poor thing!so i just wanna tell y'all', dun mess with me cuz things can get a bit or a lot ugly!u dun wanna bear the consequences,okay bitches or jerkers out der!not trying to let anyone terase but even if you did,i am sorry!its my blog and i say wat i wanna say!once ur pics is in my blog,get ready to be embarrassed by ME,ANNTHEGERL...

DADADIDIDUDU!

2008-08-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

my path is dark,and i dunno where to go!
ceh,like real ah ain!?!

me,AGAIN!i just wanna upload photos of me and onli.......ME!hahaha..yup dats me..the self centered bitch,yay!?!well,it is my blog!so either u tag abt dis photos or you can just click the red button on the right,kamsahamnida!

*the blue hair makes me look emo..
*msut love the hood,they look cute on me,wakakaka....

anyeong!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-14T15:40:00.000+08:00

hello everyone,sorry for not updating my blog for quite a long time!i very the lazy ah...haiz,ALOT OF THINGS happened to me in skool and everYwhere...but,there was dis one moment i can't forget till now!it actually happened to me when the time i took my spectacle with shafiqah. before dat i told my sis i wanted to go to her werk(harbour front) but my mum wouldn't let me if no one pick me up to go der,so,i called abg ddin to pick me up from the interchange and he agreed.after i took my specky,icha told me dat she had to go cuz her mum called her,so i told her dat i go to the interchange myself,when i went der and waited for abg ddin,a guy approached me and offered a bicsuit but i refuse it.he kept calling me to take it and by then it was the moment where the lava explode(not literally)..so i took but i did not eat it as der is a saying, DO NOT TALK TO STRANGER...den he asked me where i wanna go,who am i with and wat bus i am taking!i am so fed up but i just kept replying,trust me,i am darn irritated and scared..den abg ddin tapped my shoulder when the guy tried to asked me more questions and i am so thankful,oh god!but i am more thankful dat i didn't took the biscuit cuz inside the biscuit,der is drug!how do i know?abg ddin told me and i witness a ridiculous scene from dat guy,he scolded the bus driver because of his darn ugly fugly slipper and also he told abg ddin dat he took from thomson but instead he took the bus from yishun interchange!i was so shocked and relieved!haiz...everyone out der,be careful!even though you are darn hungry,DO NOT EAT WATEVER STRANGERS OFFER,IT CAN BE AN UNEXPECTED STUFF OR THING TO EAT!JUST THROW OR IGNORE THEM...hope you enjoy..

NEW STUFFIE

2008-08-11T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hey guess what..i hv bought my new specs and dress cool!!!

see this..

2008-08-03T07:31:00.000+08:00

wahahaha...now the time is 7.32 am!i am early today cuz i am following my sis to her werk place,yipee!i can't wait to drink choco cream chip with extra whip cream,haiz!btw,i am wearing the new dress dat kak farah bought for me...i lokk darn pretty but it is kinda awkward cuz its my first time wearing dis type of tube dress with onli string..okaylah,i wanna go first,cuz i wanna watch u-know-who!dada didi dudu..

2008-08-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

haloo!i just got back from my grandma's house..we are supposingly going to eat but then ayah suddenly brought us to go to grandma's..and guess wat,my whole family was der!my uncle-in-law to be and my bro-in-law are painting the wall to prepare for my auntie's wedding room!i was so happy!before dis i did write down abt mama and ayah fite,but i delete it?but at grandma's house,they talk nicely to each other until now!i am reali happy for them.i hope dis kinda thing won't happen again!btw,my niece,got me a tube kinda dress for me,from Bali you know..very the gorgeous seyz...i am totally hyper ah but not totally cuz,half of the time,i was sleeping due to the workshop dis morning.i can't wait for the next session cuz i will be sharing my script to all the pupils and now i am working on it!i will publish my script and you can help me by commenting and give me more opinions..but if u wanna critisize big time,i dun think so cuz u know,i am a human too,i got feelings.so aniwae,u can just tag my board,after i publish my scripts at the blog..

PS:the script is onli a 5-10 minutes play,so if you wanna give ideas,just give me the short2 ones,will do!okay?

2008-08-02T18:18:00.000+08:00

wakau,today very the tired day sia!i got creative writing workshop!but not to bad lah kan,got praise by teacher and also got meet CG..haiz life can get any better.
btw,nice rite,my new template..haiz,if you look and find carefully,you can find kim jajeoong from dbsk..i choose this temp.not because of him but then,it was fortunate of me,to actually found this temp lah.so gals out der,dun be jealous!hahaha,just joke2 onli..btw,on last tuesday,this guy send me home lah!he still wanna go back wit me!kalau cute tkpe lah kan!wakau,his face look like frankenstein ah!kalah mr bean...but wat to do,when you are cute,even frogs will run after you...btw,i wanna show dis poem dat got me a praise from my teacher...

white is plain,filled wit misery
white is calm yet its empty
white is wide,easy to be stained
white is a colour of every saints
white is just a colour dat describe everything

amcm?power?well,you get to see more of dis when you visit my blog..hope it left you a deep impression..

2008-07-20T13:36:00.000+08:00

fucklah!!!!!!!i am not angry dat she try to guide me,the thing i am angry about is dat,why she have to tell her frens?is it fun to just blurt out about other people personal things?my marks is only between our whole family!no nid to tell other people!would you like if ur big sis say this in front of her frens!you expect people to listen to you but do you listen to other people?you expect me to respect you but do you respect me as UR YOUNGEST SISTER? she have the mind set dat,onli the youngest respect the older people,if u have dat perfect mind set eh,u wouldn't have fight with mama or ayah or whoever lah kan TILL NOW!!dun just say you wanna guide me can and btw,BE HUMBLE!just say the word SORRY!u are the one tought me this HUMBLE thingy and now?if you say sorry yesterday,this matter won't be so big!and btw,I DUN NID UR BOOHOOHOO,okay!reflect urself!oh never mind!i dun think u wanna see the mirror cuz u are ALWAYS THE RIGHT ONE!!!!!and not to forget dat you are the HUMBLE ONES...JUST GIVE UP HOPE ON ME,IF DATS WAT MAKES U FEEL HAPPY!I DUN NID HOPES FROM U!JUST GO AND BE WIT UR FRENS AND BOYFRENS...BTW,YOU HAVE NO RITE TO CONTROL ME SINCE I have NEVER INTERFERE IN UR LIFE,UNDERSTAND...JUST BE NICE TO UR FRENS,OKAY!W/O FRENS U WILL DIE RITE?SO ENJOY UR LIFE!!!

2008-07-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

wat does she want from me?is she not satisfied yet?if she so disappointed,does she nid to tell the whole world?why must do dis to her own blood sister?i know dat i had made her and mama disappointed for alot of times,does she think i enjoy it?am i dat type of person in her eyes?wat do i do to her dat she have the heart to make me feel dis embarassed!it's bad enough dat she call me names,why she have to exposed my marks...i am realli damn sad sey...no one can reali feel the heart ache in my heart!NO ONE,not even my parents!i am reali disappointed!if dats ur way of trying to push me harder,then you failed to do so!i am reali hurt cuz of ur harsh word!it is hard to hear good words from ur mouth!i realized dat i am nuthin to you!btw are u trying to tell abg ddin dat living and teaching me is like living in hell,if like dis,then i rather sleep at the computer room!YOU CAN HAVE THE BED TO URSELF...i hope you will feel more satisfied after seeing how regretful and sad i am!!!!

2008-07-18T16:55:00.000+08:00

is it so hard to say sorry?is it so hard to admit to our mistake?why there must be sumthing holdin it back for us?is this our journey of life?why we can't even control our emotions?i really hate

to be alone in this world but sometimes i nid space to think

i am scared to be lost in dis big and round world...

i am really scared of losing the person dat i love most..

i dun wanna experience any sadness in my life..

yesterday is history,tomorrow is mystery but today is a gift..

well,this saying i kinda of making me realize dat,

anything can happened in any secs or mins...

once you waste a sec,dats the end of ur one sec...

i dun wanna say this but i regret having to be born in this world with this leg

and LIFE...

maybe i will never get to see wats happening tomorrow or the day after...

i am scared to live dis world w/o looking at my loved once!

god,take good care of my love once!

by: EmOdOk..

2008-07-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

why?why?i am so stupid,darn stupid!even a pig is more clever than me...dat decision was so stupid,i could actually back out but i am so damn curious about it!now my curious is no longer there and i wanna quickly get out of it but how,when,and where?all this questions could have come a bit earlier but i insist on not listening to this question marks on my head,what's the benefit of this IT!i am really DARN STUPID!aigoo,dbsk oppas help me!i really wanna go out from this stupid thing dat i am curious abt...wat now?decide it for me..i am desperate for help and concern!i shouldn't have dat curiosity and i shouldn't make such a rushing decision!i could change my fate and not drop into this horrible,terrible mess!and sum more,dat bitch go and blurted out the truth!why,why???does she really nid to or have the nid to say anything about me,ha?when all this months,she does not even care abt my problem and now she wanna ruin my precious white and plain life?i swear dat mouth of hers had just eaten one kinda S*** WHEN SHE SAID IT OUT!her name is just nice but her mouth is just so freaking darn irritating and,and!!haiz,relaxs!it is just for a small period of time dat they will forget abt it!think positive and not be negative!give my brain a time to think of a way to...KILL DAT BITCH!WAKAKAKAKA!!!

2008-07-15T21:43:00.000+08:00

she told me to blog abt her ok and here i did...

ok she's freaking irritating! and yeah!! im fairer den u now! haha

i told u not to go tanning but u did! haha

my akak is a noisy monkey i've ever had..

i love her..blueks!

2008-07-15T19:41:00.000+08:00

today was a fucking weird day for me....one day i neva come to skool,wah,so many problem happened siah!for like e.g,shakira got molested by hakim and it became a ? to me cuz i dunno anything.they all are like telling me craps that he did dat,she did this!i was like wat the hell is happening?i need to get the full and correct information...when i asked advise from my mum,all she can say is dun interfere which actually makes sense but i cannot just leave my frens at lurch rite?who to believe?aigoo,like this rite.i relakz one corner more better!haiz!!how i wish my oppas are here!btw my oppas are dbsk...alah,like i understand wat they talk like dat!hmmph,nemind ah,i just concentrate on my studies,no time to play2 one,must work hard for better future!okaylah,anything new,i update again,okay!chao xin ci!!!

2008-07-13T22:19:00.001+08:00

hey guys...just updated my blog skins...hope its kewl hees..
and hope u guys enjoy reading ma blog..text me if u need so!

2008-06-25T17:35:00.000+08:00

hello3!!!i had started alreadi and it is fun cuz not alot of study or nagging but der is a new pregnant teacher who is so pathetic and i hate her to the CORE...her face remind me if my primary six maths teacher..flashbacks start to play in my head like a movie seyzzzluckily she will be onli teaching us until ard the mid of october cuz she's giving birth on ard dat mth.open,close,open,close,it is alreadi nearing july and how many mths more will be the end of 2008,i was like damn shocked cus it is damn fast like a racing car!haiz,i wonder,wat is goin to be stored for me for the next 4 years in northland sec,der is only two choices,one,i will stray away and two i will be good and study even harder to achieve my goal!

2008-06-22T18:12:00.000+08:00

hello2 and welcome everybody to my blog!!!i am just here to annouce dat 2morrow will be the starting of every secondary skool!!!a pity to them which includes me dat we all must reduce our playing time and our fooling around...no more staying up until 6 am,no more talking and hanging out wit frens dat often and must reduce of internet surfing!?!isn't it a pity?i used to say i can't for skool but when the time arrives,i am so damn shocked and i hope it is the beginnning of june holiday!for every secondary school's student out der,just remember,if you werk hard,no one can stop you from playing or sleeping or even hanging out!this is just an advice from me to YOU ALL...

PS:actually most of the fooling ard,refers to me,so i will have to lay low for a few days...wakakaka*evil laughter*

2008-06-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

IF YOU ARE CASSIOPEIANS OR ELF(DBSK AND SUJU'S FANS) YOU WILL LIKE THIS FOLLOWING INFO OF THEM..

THIS DBSK'S FUNNY FACTS:
1. Yoochun is the lazy one in the group.
2. Junsu wakes everybody up in the morning with his video games.
3. Changmin is a crybaby.
4. Junsu is an uncle.
5. Yoochun is from the U.S. but was born in Korea.
6. Jaejoong is the "mom"; he cooks.
7. Yunho is the leader.
8. The house in "Ocean's 12" is the house in Miduyo.
9. Yoochun's family currently lives in Virginia.
10. Yoochun has had a lot of girlfriends.
11. They watch Korean dramas when they can/have time.
12. Junsu, Yunho, and Yoochun are all ambidextrous.
13. Jaejoong and Yoochun both dropped out of high school.
14. They both used to smoke.
15. Jaejoong wants to marry a fan- he believes that he`ll end up marrying a fan anyway.
16. Junsu wants a bright girl with a positive outlook of the world. Yoochun thinks it`s because Junsu is a negative person.
17. Yoochun doesn`t want to get married. (Junsu disagrees...he thinks that he MUST get married...)
18. Jaejoong wants 2 daughters and 1 son while Junsu wants 2 sons and 1 daughter. Yunho wants 5 sons and 20 daughters - Junsu says "Think of your wife!" and Jaejoong says "Are you trying to kill somebody?"
19. Yunho wants a girl who is assertive and has senses - someone who can guide him.
20. Changmin wants to marry someone who is girly and who will attach herself easily because he is shy and quiet.
21. Yunho`s message to his future son is "I love you".
22. Junsu thinks that dating and marriage are the same thing because he sees the girl he`s dating as his future wife. He has to like the girl that much (enough to see her as a hopefully Mrs. Kim Junsu) in order for him to date her - he doesn`t want to date just anyone. He`ll date her to a point where he wants to marry her. (Changmin agrees with him.)
23. Junsu likes to use his hand as a pillow.
24. Jaejoong made Changmin show off his body in their Hiyaya single.
25. Yunho sleeps diagonally on his bed.
26. Jaejoong was laughed at because of his puberty stage--his voice would crack and his friends would laugh at him each time he sang.
27. Yunho got rejected by a friend that he came to like. He asked her out and lit 100 candles. She told him she only wanted to be friends.
28. Junsu was suppose to debut earlier, but due to puberty...he lost his voice. He would always go and scream hoping his voice would come back.
29 Before debut, Max would make up excuses as to why he missed class. Each time it was always a relative's funeral and when he couldn't make that up he'd say something else. No one was curious because Max has a wide range of relatives. : )30. Micky likes to sleep listening to music on his walkman. He tends to drop it, so at nighttime Junsu might get hit with a walkman or book or something. (That was when they had bunkbeds...)

as for suju,you all will have to wait,cuz for now,i dun know where to find suju's facts...so just catch up wit me..

2008-06-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

halu2 everybody,soyie for not updating my blog cuz i have been busy with sumthin,ceh like real!hahaha...i am here to annouce dat i am no longer an EMO or anythin!i am a normal teen dat doesn't belong to any genre or category...but i still like black and white colour...i jus wanna lead my life normally like other teens but dat doesn't mean i will be one of the bitchos dat keep talking about boyz 24/7!as you can see i had already customize my blog to a new one and as for the song,i will have to ask my unnie to change it for me cuz i am not good in dis stuffzz!so i'm happy wit wat i am and please be happy always,dun be sad for no reason!!!ah!one last thing,my mum bought me a hp and i am so damn happy but i didn't get the model dat i want but nemind,life goes on..now i can listen to radio when i am in the bus,hahaha!no more drooling for new models,btw my phone model is G502 and it is simple to use and also very light,so enjoy ur life and be happy always..

xoxo
emodok-blackangel

LeT gO OnCe yOu hAvE To.....

2008-05-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

this phrase is very meaningful towards me,'let go,once you have to"!some things are not dat easy to let go but certain things,can be quite easy but not dat quick..i saw this phrase in a book and also,i heard it from my sis,but i rephrase and shorten it abit...in one phrase can contain alot of meaning which sometimes have a great impact on us which brought back memories and tears just drip down from our eyes.....it happened to me once and it's really have big impact on me but when i think back,there's no point holding it back as it is not worthwhile whereas it onli hurt me even deeper!i hope every one out der think back and reflect on wat's the point of holding it back when you know it is time to let go!once you let go,ur heart and ur mood tend to be even better and lighter..you will not be stress thinking and remember anything bad about ur past.think of a brighter future,don't broad over the past,if not,ur journey of life is goin to be painful and tiring...

HaIz.........

2008-05-29T17:54:00.001+08:00

today is one of the lame holiday i've ever had...nothing to do except facing the computer and watching korean boy bands and movies,dats all...watching tv also,nothing to watch except channel u and disney channel...pathetic sey...i am really darn bored......i wanna msn with my frens but all of them are offline or busy!haiz,got computer dun wanna use!i can't wait for skool...secondary 1's life is the best of all,nothing to do except laughing throughout the lessons...not listening to 'cher',hahaha!i reali miss those days,can't wait to finish june holiday!