Sunday, April 26, 2009
am i not being myself dis few days?
did i just fall deep asleep?
i feel very meaningless and tired of all dis craps and shitz!!
i just cried for someone dat barely even notice me!=((
i want the old me where i use to hate guys and only love my storybooks!
someone close to me say dat I've change and it's just because of one guy!!
she knocked some sense on my head but i dunno if I'm still awake?
sick and tired of waiting for you!!!!i'm so sick of living wit ur face clearly in my head...but why i'm still not feeling light and relief?i feel pressure!
i'm scared of truths and reality!like she said,he may not even care if i'm crying blood or wat!maybe he's enjoying outside not hecking care abt me!
i dun wanna trust anione!i dun have the heart to forget abt u since i've been living wit me n u's fantasy for 1 yr and 4 mths!
i am still crying rite now!=((
i hate myself to the core!i'm disgusted by me,can u believe it?
shud i just shut myself off him?or be a bitch and break them off!
not gonna happened!!!!!!!i dun wan to be a bitch and destroy some else's happiness!some bitch destroy my mum's happiness and i'm so not goin to do dat to others!!!!!!!!!!!now i feel abit light hearted!the tears are starting to dry up!
i think i shud watch some hair tutorials so i can plan on how to tie my hair for school dis monday and the rest of the year!
ps: kak!tanx alot for helping me to WAKE UP...but i nid time to forget abt him!
just give me time!time heals wound!i hope dat is true some how cuz its werking
4 me!=((
4/26/2009 02:39:00 AM; unforgotten.Y
HELLOOO!(: