Thursday, April 30, 2009
i can't believe dat now i'm sitting here doin maths!dis is wat i get for having a maths lover as an older sista!i really feel heavy inside me now!i dunno why!and sory2 to my peepz cuz i did not come to school today,hehehe..=))
so damn bored seys sitting here doin nuthing except maths!haiyoo...
now i'm trying to figure out an equations dat is so lame rite,i noe!haiz,aniwaes,now i wanna do more equations cuz i was force to do it!=((
bubye now!=((
4/30/2009 07:07:00 PM; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, April 26, 2009
am i not being myself dis few days?
did i just fall deep asleep?
i feel very meaningless and tired of all dis craps and shitz!!
i just cried for someone dat barely even notice me!=((
i want the old me where i use to hate guys and only love my storybooks!
someone close to me say dat I've change and it's just because of one guy!!
she knocked some sense on my head but i dunno if I'm still awake?
sick and tired of waiting for you!!!!i'm so sick of living wit ur face clearly in my head...but why i'm still not feeling light and relief?i feel pressure!
i'm scared of truths and reality!like she said,he may not even care if i'm crying blood or wat!maybe he's enjoying outside not hecking care abt me!
i dun wanna trust anione!i dun have the heart to forget abt u since i've been living wit me n u's fantasy for 1 yr and 4 mths!
i am still crying rite now!=((
i hate myself to the core!i'm disgusted by me,can u believe it?
shud i just shut myself off him?or be a bitch and break them off!
not gonna happened!!!!!!!i dun wan to be a bitch and destroy some else's happiness!some bitch destroy my mum's happiness and i'm so not goin to do dat to others!!!!!!!!!!!now i feel abit light hearted!the tears are starting to dry up!
i think i shud watch some hair tutorials so i can plan on how to tie my hair for school dis monday and the rest of the year!
ps: kak!tanx alot for helping me to WAKE UP...but i nid time to forget abt him!
just give me time!time heals wound!i hope dat is true some how cuz its werking
4 me!=((
4/26/2009 02:39:00 AM; unforgotten.Y
Friday, April 24, 2009
bingit bingit bingit!!!!!!=((
malas nk hidop tahu tk?dgn perangai satu2 cam gini!
tk boleh tgk org senang utk satu minit ke?balik sekolah jek,blom lagik pijak lantai rumah dah suro buat tu buat ni!
penat tahu tk!dah kat skolah mcm2 karena nk layan ade sampai tk terlayan!
PENAT LAH.........
*i feel much better lah sey!!!!!=))whoever read this and not satisfied!
dis is my blog and my life story!so u can just laugh ur ass off or u can just sit there and read unfeelingly,okay???????????/
4/24/2009 07:25:00 PM; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, April 12, 2009
yoyoyoyo!i just came back from costa sand chalet and after 3 days and 1 nite,i was like,"HEY,I MISS MY BED!!!".....and i'm quite depressed after i heard rumors has it
saying dat my dad passed away recently....i dunno why i feel terrible?
i dun love him neither do i even think of him at all!=((
is it just my child-father nature kinda feeling towards him?
or i just felt guilty?i'm confused!!!!alot of things has happened to me!
i dunno how to face life!i'm sorry to whoever i did wrong to!
i hope you will forgive me!i'm so tired of facing life's obstacles..
i'm exhausted of being guilty towards u...
hope u all will understand!abt the chalet thingy,
maybe tonite or tomorrow i will upload photos for yall to see!
4/12/2009 12:37:00 PM; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, April 9, 2009
i just wanna shout I'M TIRED!!!!tired of wat?
tired of living!!!!!he's been in my mind for 1 years and 4 mths!
how to get rid of him?i'm very2 tired,i just wanna close my eyes rite now!
HELP ME!=((
today my bros got public caning!i cried siah like hell.....
heart pain sah!f*** sah skool's rulez..
all step smiling but then i noe dat it is all fake!
especially "camel" and "pen"!they r like the best bros ah...
i love them sah but too bad satu2 otak sempit!
dah kenek caning dah tu tkpe ah
then Manu asked to stand in front to apologise?
i was like "KIWAK!?!"
i hate sah si koyak tu!benci3!
WARNING 4 CERTAIN B***CHES IN SKUL:
*if u think u r darn perfect,then u can kiss my ass,okay?
*get a fcuking life lah deh!={
*wanna talk,talk front not back!
*dun se-tep jual mahal!
sape2 yg terase or terfeeling,jgn malu2 tag kat board kiter ehk!
4/09/2009 09:14:00 PM; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, April 5, 2009
here i am sitting alone in my comp room on a rainy day listening to fall by Brandy!=(
i can just take my pillow and sleep sitting down!i wanna tell yall how much i miss him....
i can't wait to see his face!omg...he's so mesmerising for a guy............................
okay,i know i sounds desperate but dats how u will feel when u r in love or having a crush.
everything abt him seems perfect!he can make u laugh,cry,smile,angry,irritated and sometimes disgusted!aniwaes thinking of love making me feel hungry and tired..
i think i'm way better off w/o him!
wat do u think?=[
4/05/2009 01:39:00 PM; unforgotten.Y
Friday, April 3, 2009
today was hot and sweaty!gosh!i just had an cold bubble bath,woohoo!
sports day was darn lame and boring cuz the cheering was such a turn off and the weather was not so frenly!but b4 i talk abt my sports day,there is sumthin more surprising and shocking happened at skool....
as per normal,getting ready fer PE but yong neva cum and we had extra 2 periods of doin our english hmwk,and then,dis one guy fren of mine happily came to me and asked fer my phone,so i lend it to him!he usually took music from me and dat was common but when i came back asking fer my phone,there were another two guy frens of mine was smilng with him while looking at my phone!
i saw him bluetoothing sumthin and i asked his frens wat they did!
they both told me dat he took sum of my photos from my phone!and one of them was dis fav pic of mine!i was so shock cuz it was like,"hey,why do u wanna pic of me when u can actually see me fer 5 days in a week?"i told miss wise and she thought he like me cuz he asked me to go on a GBR wit him once,and i just dun bother!haiyoo,why of all,HIM?guys,guys!
and another gross thing happened in yishun stadium,i saw him wit her(look at the previous blogging,and u might noe who he and she is..),hugging and leaning wit each other..
it is not abnormal to me fer a couple to do dat but whenever they are "together",they will either be behind me,in front,at the back or left n right..tut isn't it?
my blood just went up to stairway of hell!is like purposely,u noe?wat fuck man?
other then dat,nuthing else happened except dat 2na got a trophy fer sumthing gud..........
went back home starving,sweating and exhausted n as fer the pics,i will upload later on cuz my phone got sumthing wrong...haiz,wat a day!=(
4/03/2009 07:49:00 PM; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, April 2, 2009
fuck fuck fuck!
shit man....today sux alot sia!i bump into many people dat i don't wish to see!
school time was fine but after school was like wat the?
and then i saw him again at canteen but dis time alone,i was like is he serious?
where is she?f***ing another guy?or trying to fish for one?
gosh,i just wish dat i dunno him or her and how i wish to change skool!
luckily ders mah peepz,such as miss wise,teddy bear,Fit,choco emo,hana,Put and C.T!
they are the reason dat i'm still ALIVE in dat skool...haiyoo,guys just make me wanna
*BLUEK*!but it just sux when they make u melt rite in front of them!hehehe..=))
at school,other den seeing him w/o her!
i kinda enjoy my school period(tank god)!especially during IT!
i was very surprised when i actually concentrated during lessons!
and i helped loads of people,here,there,everywhere...=0
tanx miss wise fer making me laughed during IT and also dun ferget the squeez2 thingy!
onli teddy,u n me noe dis so let's keep dis as our DIRTY LITTLE SECRET.......................
love yall!=))
4/02/2009 10:25:00 PM; unforgotten.Y
HELLOOO!(: